sleepless again

it's interesting how we can be kept awake and not have any idea what is keeping us up

i don't know if it's something, someone, or maybe nothing at all, but God has definitely put some thought in my mind tonight that i just can't put down. i thought it might be something with faith, so i opened up Crazy Love and read the chapter on the profile of an obsessive Christian. i thought it might be that i needed to get something off my chest, so i wrote a long email to my sister. i thought i might it might have just been as simple as forgetting to journal, so i took a few minutes to reflect on my day

but whatever it is, those didn't take care of it. i'm still here. i'm still awake, unsure of what keeps me up. i'm waking up in 4.5 hours, and definitely need to start sleeping more. maybe it's just my adjustment to college, but i've been having a lot of trouble not only sleeping enough hours, but getting good sleep. my best sleep as come when i've gone home. something about this place just doesn't give me the same quality sleep as i used to get.

why do we need sleep? why did God create us so we needed to rest? i know that, psychologically, sleep helps us prepare for the next day and allows our brain to review everything we've learned and done the previous day, but why would sleep be necessary? especially if we have to spend a third of our life in bed. God works in mysterious ways...

and that's why all i can do is get back in bed and pray.